Those of you who REALLY know me, know that I lead an active and CRAZY life! Sometimes I stretch myself so thin and I give so much to others that I rarely make time for myself. It’s become quite a concern with some of the people who are close to me in my life. Recently, I had to cut back on a couple of classes in my schedule due to work commitments and also learning a new fitness that I am feeling passionate about that is pretty much cutting edge. There are some who don’t understand what I’m doing and there are some that aren’t feeling my journey, but I had to come to the realization is that this journey is NOT theirs to understand, it’s mine to EMBRACE and COMPREHEND. I’ve made so much concessions for others that I haven’t made any for myself and THAT IS WRONG!
When I entered into the fitness world, I was told that I wasn’t good enough. I was told that you don’t have “the look”. I came from an upbringing and a background where the words CAN’T and WON’T are not in the vocabulary. If you want something bad enough, you go out there and get it and you let no one or any circumstance keep you from achieving what it is that you want. I find those who have something to say about you and they (themselves) aren’t doing a thing with their life to be very unsettling. I look up to the doers and the thinkers, the dreamers and the believers and the ones who do nothing but encourage along on the journey. I, in turn, pay it forward to others! It’s just that simple. Give, but don’t expect anything in return!
Recently, so much stress from outside forces such as people whose negativity has entered my orbit to stress from work and also stress from not having enough time to do all the things I want to do to be stifling. My creativity was definitely in question. My passion was definitely in question. When your passion becomes a chore, it’s time to step back and re-evaluate. I dropped into a friend’s dance class because I whine so much about how I miss being a student and how I miss just being out of my head and not having to think and be ON POINT every single time. When I did that, it was just the kick in the pants that I needed to understand that I NEEDED this break from the normal. I NEEDED this time to myself. I “Danced Like Nobody Was Watching!” And folks, let me tell you, it re-ignited me like no other. My focus and mind shifted to a place where I could respect more what I do.
I don’t expect anyone to understand this ramble that’s going on, but guess what…..it’s not meant for anyone to understand! It’s meant for me! And in putting this out there in the universe in hopes of gaining clarity! I am so blessed to be able to bring the best of me when I teach classes and I even more blessed when I can bring myself into what I love to do. I’m writing again, I’m dancing again, I’m spending quality time with my loved ones, I’m evolving and growing!
Thanks for hearing me out! I NEEDED THIS! Remember, dance like nobody’s watching! Love and blessings!
Jerod Williams 